missing your present~ 16/10

dear today i wake up at 11.45am..so late..like pig..-.-
hubert sms me ask me go lunch..so brush my teeth and face go lunch with hubert, ivan go hai yang eat..hehe..then accompany ivan and hubert go cut hair...but i din cut..haha..don trust the hairstylist there..:).then come bak home online see see frenster..dear..i miss u ler..donno u will come view this blog or not...feel so empty now without u beside me..dear..~..feel like hugging u right now..cant wait to meet u already..~..dear..muacs~...

don 1 quarrel again~sobsob

quarrel again~:( exam week again..haiz..dear..mb i got say wrong something jsut now so u angry me...but dear your words sometimes really vry pain.. heart vry pain now..so pain..the words u said to me just wont go off my mind~......so so down..totally no mood to study.~ARGH!!
so shit~..really hate quarrel..~ hope it will be fine soon~~..

sorrow wheel over my heart

really long time din write blog..but everytime write blog is always sad blog de..:( they said sweet time past vry fast but sad time past really vry vry slow... today just bak from dear's hometown..actually feel vry happy cause i meet with dear's family..but feel vry sad after receiving his bro comment to me...saying that he cant feel i care about u...plus dear said again already sik guan i not "ti tie" enough to u..dear,i admit sometimes i got abit stubborn din listen to u dear..but i will guai guai listen to u next time..i promise dear..give me some trust..i will change...dear,i really feel vry worried...i really scared i will lose u...when u said u think both of us really got problem tat time..i am so scared u know?..i really out of mind...i also donno wat i am talking on the phone just now..really cant think properly already..dear..hope u will give bb some time and trust..i will make this changes...

i am sorry sweetheart..

yesterday...beside making the one i love happy..,instead..i made her cried for me...i really feel vry vry sad.every tear she dropped for me is like something pierce into my heart..the pain was countless..and for sure..i swear for real i will try my best to make her cheer again...yesterday I really had a sleepless night, moving here and there on my bed and thinking about what happen to us that night..all I could hear was my heart beating much faster than it ever has. .my heart non stop thinking the mistake i did...it ended in a far different way that made my heart choke with tears of losing something...i made a big mistake for not being there when u need me the most..i tried to be there for u yesterday..but i know i was late for it...dear..for now.. I just wanted to say sorry. .I'm sorry for being so insensitive and less caring.. I really didn't mean to hurt you.. you are my life, my heart, my soul and so much more..i really need you by my side.. I want to say that I really do love you..Also, please, please, Sweetheart, give me an opportunity to show you that I can do it without mistakes again.. I swear I won't do anything that will hurt you...Sweetheart. You are everything for me ...i know it is not easy for u to forgive me..it gonna takes some times to heal the wound inside ur heart....sweetheart,please give me a chance to show you that i can do it..

love always.
bb~

(family+ dear)= MY FAMILy~~ 27/1/2007 :)

(bro's graduation day~)

( LEE HOM~..engtao~)

3 Leng lui (dear,sis and mum)

It's a great day today..after so long of holiday..i finally can meet up with dear..~ leave my luggage at kl sentral and straight went to puduraya to fetch my dear after i arrived at LCCT...then we went to mid valley to meet up with my parent..it's really have a hard time for us to go to mid valley from pudu raya..:(..first take the STAR LRT from Bandaraya to Masjid jamek~..then have to walk a short distance of road to PUTRA LRT from Masjid Jamek to KL sentral.. from KL sentral then take KTM to midvalley ..the most worst part is at the KTM..so so many ppl..squeeze sotong inside there~..zzz...super mafan and tired..=.=..next time better take taxi..dear..it's so damn tiring ...reach mid valley there already no mood wan shopping dy lo..haha...then meet my bro and father at the food court and have our lunch there..haha..dear wan go toilet but cant find it at the foodcourt..good also la..haha..lazy ppl always go to toilet..so u din go proved tat u are not lazy ppl..haha..i have my fishball noodle and dear have her fishball kueh tiaw…while my bro and father have their “spicy lala rice”..hehe…then went shopping at midvalley after eating..while my bro and father just stand and wait for us , sis and mum …first ,we went to the pet shop at top floor of mid valley..see those animals..i saw the biggest Africa turtle was from tat shop..wao..super big le..haha..then went up to the second floor see those birds ,dogs, hamster , rabbit..oh ya..first time I saw guinea pig was also at this shop,..hehe.:p then went into nike shop just opposite the pet shop..but no discount on any shoes...din manage to buy any shoes there..then walk around midvalley again..dear was complaining she was so full and lazy to shop..but we still continue to shop,..mid valley was so big…but I just manage to bought myself a short pant from body glove only..-.-..dear also bought herself a t-shirt only at romp shop.. meet my sis and mum at this shop also..so shock~..:p…then went out from the shop meet my bro and father again ..haha..so ngam…before tat…dear was so scared tat we din go sungai wang..cause her lee hom is coming..she keep asking me whether we are going to sungai wang after we shop at mid valley.haha..dear don worry de la..if my family don 1 go sungai wang I also will pei u go de..:p.. before we went sungai wang..3 leng lui (dear , sis and mum) manage to take a pic of photo at the flower shop …:p..right after we reach sg wang..dear start to feel so excited cause she gonna meet her LEE HOM at here..haha..but tat time still early la..so we went to shopping first at around sg wang 1st…after finish shopping..hiak hiak..it’s show time for lee hom ...hehe..we went outside sungai wang..wao..so many ppl gathering there waiting for lee hom~...so what we do is we have to keep on squeezing to the front of the stage to have a better view...we manage to squeeze to the front of the left side of the stage..but I feel more like I was bathing at there cause tat place was so crowded with ppl..haha…stand there waiting for about 40 minutes..finally lee hom come out from the stage.ARRG!!!.OMG..everyone was SHOUting~....he is so so so damn engtao!!..hahaha..”WO SHUO YING SIONG , NI SHUO LEE HOM, WO SHUO LEE HOM, NI SHUO YING SIONG” J ..lee hom sang 2 songs on tat day..first 1 is Gai Shi Ying Xiong (Heroes of Earth) and the second 1 is Da Cheng Xiao Ai (Big City, Little Love)..hehe..i managed to take a nice close video of lee hom..so proud of it..haha…while dear watch till don 1 go leave the stage..the eyes keep staring at there..don 1 to leave..haha..after watching,we wait for my parent outside sungai wang and then when bak to bro apartment and have a rest after tiring for whole day.…dear help me transfer photos of bro graduation days and lee hom to my comp..wao..after seeing tat lee hom video really feel more proud of myself again..haha…then we take turn to have our bath..when I was bathing whole family including dear was looking at bro’s graduation day pictures ..giving comment which pictures are nice should be develop ..hehe.. I heard my bro was complaining my sis donno how to take pic when I was bathing in the toilet right dear?hahaha..hmm.tat day bro sleep alone at his fren room..mummy and daddy sleep at master bedroom..dear and sis sleep at guest room..and me~..the special 1 sleep at the living room..haha..bro apartment was so so cold..flu whole night and and feel sick..tat night b4 sleep manage to acc dear watch guess guess guess and give her a vry warm hug b4 she sleep...guess tat all for today..it’s a memorable day to remember 27/1/2007..dear must remember o..~

Memorable Day 8/1/2007

hmm..dear..actually u no need force bb ,bb also will write de..hehe..hmm..this day is a vry meaningful and sweetest day for both of us...:) ..we went our for our date at 2pm...but today i was late for date cause i got something to do..so make dear wait till vry sleepy..sorry ya..actually bb go prepare the surprise..hehe..hmmm..we went to MP..after finding the parking we went up to the cinema then i realise i left my handphone inside the car..then went bak to the car again to take my hp..sorry dear..here i really wan to apologise from dear..really sorry sorry.. when we were trying to enter the lift to go up to the cinema again..the lift door suddenly close..so i enter the lift alone and leave dear alone there..sorry dear..really vry sorry..i was trying to press open already but the door still close really kek sei bb..:(.but i went down as fast as possible to meet dear...sorry ya dear..leave u alone there.bb promise u next time wont leave u alone there k~...then we go get our ticket..haha..and have our lunch at foodcourt..really super hungry tat time..i have my fast food for lunch and dear have her nasi pattaya..and her taufu fa.~..then we went to THAI KUANG book shop to find dear "file"and"card holder"....later on ,we went for car racing at the arcade..hiak hiak~..1st round won by me but 2nd round won by dear..very geng o dear..can win bb..haha.actually is bb let u win de la..see u so kelien never win me..haha..opss..then we enter the cinema..oh ya..my dear was complaining my jean was too big for me from she enter the car till i enter the cinema..she still complaning..oh gosh!!..dear..u vry ah po le..haha..next time bb don dare wear tat jean already..haha...the movie(kungfu mahjong 3) was so so funny..really enjoy tat movie even though i was so tired and sleepy..after watching movie..i went to toilet while dear went to the shop beside the toilet while waiting for me..here i bought my "qin chun bang" for rm2..cheap huh?.haha..we went to 1901 HOtdog shop to try the sandwich..omg...the sandwich look nice..but when u eat..omg..totally cant eat de..no taste de...:( oh ya..not to forget the ice lemon tea also..so hard to drink..but dear 1 hot tea even worse..dear,u know tat is the most most most "nan he" de tea in my life..haha..dear said no more second time o..haha..but dear, we haven try the hotdog o..give them 1 more chance.. next time we go try the hotdog again k?haha...see nice or not..then we went to dataran pahlawan have our window shopping~..oh ya dear...bb found out dataran pahlawan really is for all girl to shopping de ler..inside there i think got 5-6 shops selling u all girl bra and underwear de..=.= so so many ler...wonder y got so many shop selling this kind of things..really got business open this kind of shop??-.-...then we went bak to mp sit and rest awhile at the chair infront of the stage..~..then we went to the beaCH~..first time walk with dear at the beach...dear, bb really feel vry nice holding ur hand walking with u at the beach...really feel vry great and romantic u know~....really enjoy my time with u there...but dear vry bad..don let me go toilet tat time~.. haha..then we sit at the beach together have some heart talk with dear..(^.^) hehe..then went in bak to the car ..here,is my first time present dear 7 roses face to face in front of dear..you are the first girl i present flower face to face like this.. this 7 roses mean alot to both of us dear..it represent our "7 month anniversary and i'm infatuated with you meaning tat I am crazy about u~" dear must remember it k~~..the beach was so so windy..so i drove to the beach behind the hotel to celebrate our 7 month anniversary with a sweet chocolate cake with 7 candles on it.:)...hmm..here,dear first time gave me a kiss on my cheek..dear,honestly tat time dear kiss me.i was..hmm..so so nervous and so so happy when u first kiss me..i really donno wat to say tat time.i was speechless..i just can tell u in my heart , i'm so happy and so xin fu having u!!..dear..thanks so much~~..then we went for our dinner somewhere near the foodcourt behind MP...we have our carrot cake and our sweet anniversary for our dinner ..yummy yummy~..hehe…went back hm straight after our dinner..then we spend our private time at bb house..really have a sweet moment with u there dear..the sweetest and the best moment in my life...thanks so much dear..bb really have a nice and great day with u dear…dear..i never know love is so wonderful up till I met u dear~..thanks so much again dear.…it’s the most memorable day for our 2007 years...dear~..CHEERS~..and dear, i love you always~..muaks:*

hide of your feeling~

it's 3.22am right now~..still haven sleep..kinda sleepy..keep yawning at here..=.=.2morrow gonna have digital logic test...really have to jia you lo~~...dear dear.here bb got something to tell u~....honestly, bb can still feel u are angry with me~...whenever i ask u whether u are angry with me or not..you will always try to change the topic away or u will replied bb u have no free time angry me~...dear i know how much u pain u felt for me...i really know it dear....you don 1 scold me everytime when u are angry because u don 1 to make me and our relationship feel more worse..i know you hide ur angry feeling just for both of our sake..dear..i am sorry ..i know bb sometimes will vry ba dao and vry xiao qi make u vry suffer..reallly sorry..but dear..i wan u to share with me your feeling always..no matter how good or how bad u feel..i wan to know how is your feeling..pls don hide it from bb~..sharing it is always better than hiding it right dear??..~..and thanks you so much for cherishing and treasuring our relationship so much~~...love u always my dear..muaks~:*

i am sorry~

i am sorry dear...i really don mean it...this is the first time i made u cry i guess....or i made u cry alots of time already but u din tell me....as a bf i know i should make ur life happy...instead i make u so suffer and cry for me...i am sorry for making u heart pain...i am sorry..there is nothing i can said except for sorry..sorry for my greediness...i shouldnt said those word to u..plus i shouldnt make u suffer for this during ur exam time...i truely apologize for my insensitiveness ... dear...please don angry....just give me a chance to say "I am Sorry"...just let me continue to love you..pls don turn me away and pls don ask me to go~...i am truely sorry~,..deeply apologize deeply from bb heart~~