part time job~

dear,now is 4.47am and i am still awake~..i go lye on bed but my mind keep thinking the part time as a maxis postpaid promoter job suit me or not~..feel like no courage to do well in tat job~..i never been as a promoter b4..abit scared and pai sei~.bb mind keep thinking whether i should go tien jing ask aunty whether she need hired ppl to help in her restaurant or not`..cause i think tat kind of job suit me more as a waiter~!..and 1 more think i consider about is i have no time to accompany dear during weekend..really really feel bad when think of this...dear maybe u donno this feeling...but i really hope to stay beside u everyday~..missing u much right now~..