fair or unfair ?

finally can relax 1day (melaka historical'day) although just 1 day holiday but i still feel very happy n enjoy but unhappy is bb cant acc me...how to say cant acc?bsc is he too bz?tat not,he just wanna gout play v his fren...reli speechless...hope he can tel me,i dunwan go then he wil acc me but tat is always become impossible...haiz..bb,i know u enjoy gout play v ur fren;without me,u still can fun v ur fren too...so i never worry ur life will feel boring...maybe u never sense i really change already,dis few month,i feel myself level of jealous keep increasing....feel suffer...tat not me... :( but u never know it..bb,i reli reli hope u always is the 1st person know wat i thinking...but u always become the last 1(smtm is remind from me)...argggg....how our relationship cont to.....hard to imagine..i know v need face realistic but i reli got a lot of dream btw of us...i reli dunno how to tel u...maybe im gal so i will think many n many(tat is u always say im think too much)..but i know tat is not jst a dream...smtm i will think,izzit u reli will be my last lover?or nw i jst become blind to love?i dislike dis feel...u always wil say:how come i wil think like tat?y always like tat?...but u never say:y u wil make me feel tat?izzit u do anythings make me feel bad?...maybe nw i wan is not jst part of u,i wan is all ( more n more from u) i know tat is unfair,but can u let me always stay ur heart evi min,evi sec,evi dream...